tell me, what is it you plan to do with your one wild and precious life?
~mary oliver
It seems the time has come again to reflect on the year past and to make plans for the future that will unfold before us. I had big (as in unrealistic) intentions of filling out workbooks, journaling, and unravelling my experiences of 2015.
Instead, I took a grand pause and practiced the unfamiliar yet deeply nourishing art of not-doing.
I think it’s easy to feel a lot of pressure to get so much done in January, which in many ways is counter-intuitive to the nature of Winter. The earth is hibernating, this is a time of rest and restoration for plants and animals. I feel called to do the same – slow down, drink hot tea, allow my mind to rest, and go to bed early most nights.
It has taken much practice, healing, and personal transformation to arrive into a space where I could feel content with my life, just as it is right now.
Allowing myself to just be present and not strive for more is not a natural skill. It’s something like trying on a new shade of lipstick that feels garish at first while your friends tell you it looks amazing on you. You trust them, so you buy it and start wearing it around the house here and there. Little by little, you realize they were right and now it’s your go-to, feel-good color.
The seeds of slowing down were planted for me last year and I intend to water, fertilize and mulch the heck out of them. Part of this came with motherhood. I think it also had something to do with turning 35. I’m understanding both my power and my limits in new, fascinating ways.
I’ve grown exhausted of pretending, hiding, placating, suppressing, and all the other unhealthy and energy draining “ING” words.
I don’t have it all figured out by any means, but I do have a grasp on a few broad-brush concepts that will guide me in 2016
COURAGE ~ It’s time to take bigger risks to create the bliss-filled, love-drenched life I know is possible for myself and my family
TRUTH ~ I will say what I mean and express how I feel
FREEDOM ~ I am comfortable allowing my work to shift, even if that means radical change or even starting over completely
As usual, I’ve taken on a big, chunky piece of pie, so I will just have to write about these things, piece by piece, in the coming weeks and months ahead. In everything I do, my hope is that sharing these words will provide a measure of comfort, healing, or inspiration to someone who reads them. I whole-heartedly believe we are on this journey together and it is a beautiful gift to travel with your illuminated souls.
The first step for me in 2016 is a new offering that will begin in February. It’s a big evolution for me and I feel so excited to share it with you soon!
Until then, I would love for you to share your intentions or wishes for the year here in the comments below. I promise I will respond to each one and hold space for your beautiful dreams in my heart.